Massage with Kumar!
Ok, I gotta tell you I had the most amazing massage ever last night with Kumar. When I got to his house he spent a good ten minutes asking a few questions about my diet, sleep, etc. so he had a good idea about my body and mind. Then he spent the next 1.45 hours giving me an amazing massage with oils. It wasn’t the deep tissue massage I am used to; it was actually far better than that – far better than any massage I’ve ever gotten before b/c It was on a much deeper level than the physical. His touch was really out of this world – when he placed his hands on my body I could feel his energy, his heat, and his calmness. He gave a great massage in general, but when he worked on areas in my body that were really tight and have always given me trouble really magical things seemed to happen. I know when he worked on my left shoulder, which has been a really painful area of my body for a long time, I not only felt his energy mesh with mine, not only felt his heat release a lot of tension, but just having his hands above that area of my body made my muscle jump – literally. Same thing with my right hip and right arm. And when he massaged my belly I felt years of tension seem to ease away from me. After the massage he made me some tea and told me he felt very deep seated sadness in my left shoulder and my right hip and thigh. He joked that he needed a hammer and chisel to get in that stuff – but said that it was from very long ago – maybe fifteen years or so. He also said he felt a lot of masculane energy in my thigh, belly and shoulder. I then told him my father died when I was eight. He said I have a lot of issues from my childhood that I need to address, and then let go of in order to release the pain and tension I feel in certain areas of my body. I already knew that some of these physical issues were related to the emotional issues from my past, but didn’t know to what extent – and sort of just blew it off before. He says I have to use a lot of energy each day holding that stuff in those areas of my body – and If I can somehow let go of that stuff I will find that I have a lot more energy throughout the day. So, now I must work on these issues – only problem is that my childhood was pretty difficult – and I have a lot of issues to work on and let go of – I don’t know how or where to begin!!!!!!!!!!!! But I feel like I already have with Kumar last night – so I am just gonna keep working from there….If anyone has any advice as to how to begin this process – I am all ears!
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This mornings practice was a bit challenging b/c I felt a little extra sensitive today, both physically and mentally. My left shoulder was really hurting me this morning and would not let up, and I felt like my emotions were just RAW. I had dedicated my practice to my father as always, and then my shoulder was just throbbing – which made me think about all the things Kumar said to me last night. So my whole practice was mentally focused on the words “let go” – of what I had no idea but I kept trying to keep that thought in the forefront with the hopes that I could somehow ‘let go’ of a lot of excess baggage I have been carrying around for far too long. Unfortunately I only seemed to get more distracted. Oh well – these things happen. I must say though that I got so warm today – I was sweating like a pig….Maybe I was really dealing with some stuff during practice that I wasn’t aware of…..
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It is almost 10am now, and I am uber excited b/c I have a package to pick up at the post office (they open at 10am yippy). Then I have to call Dell and Steller information systems today about my computer – not really looking forward to either of those phone calls – but they must be done.
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June 19th, 2006 at 3:00 pm
Dearest Krista,
First off, let me just say that you have been sorely missed at FCY and Wednesdays just haven’t been the same. I miss your deliberate, tenacious adjustments. I am, however completely at peace in the knowledge that you are having this amazing journey. Thank you so much for sharing it.
I’ve really enjoyed reading your blog over the weeks and I felt compelled to comment today because I completely understand the emotional burden you carry having lost my father as well. I was 17 when I lost mine and there is definately a void there that I’ve learned to live/not live with. The loss is a daily reprieve I can’t escape. It’s just there. I see that it is for you as well since you dedicate your practice to your father. I find myself at the same crossroad as yourself…what to do with all these feelings that stick to my ribs like a vise and manifest themselves in laboured breathing. I do know that the first step is just the acknowledgement of whatever it is that ails you. The acknowledgement alone will definately bring you some relief since it draws things to the surface and out of those areas of your body that Kumar described. It sounds like you are on the right track. Stick with it and let me know where it takes you.
Love and Namate, Colleen